Sometimes teaching is hard & upsetting. Sometimes it makes me more frustrated than happy. Sometimes I can feel the tears in my eyes & the knot in my throat (once I’m away from my students).
Thankfully I have very few of these days at this point and when I do I have a great support system to help me out. I truly love my job, but it definitely tests my limits.
Today was one of those days.
I’ll be working from 7 am to 8:30 pm. It’s a stupid, long day, but it’s worth it.
I’ll be subbing at the school I teach daycare at. I’m so excited to have more money & to get some more experience under my belt. I’m slowly moving closer & closer to my dream job.
It also really boosted my confidence. The best part is that two teachers at the school actually told me to apply, which really made me feel great. I feel like I’m doing something right.
There is nothing that chokes me up quicker than getting gifts from kids. On Friday, I got so many gifts from the kids I watch/teach. I got handmade cards, funky socks, homemade bath scrub, a gift certificate for new shoes (!!!) & even a voucher for pie. One parent even gave me $20, which I am adamant about spending on something fun that isn’t food or rent. The parents & the kids I work with are amazing & so thoughtful. I think most of them reached out because they know I’m lonely here. It just meant so much to me that they would even think to buy me something.
I really think this break will serve me well. Just taking the time to try & appreciate my job the past few days has been good for me. This may not be my perfect job, but it’s what I have right now & I am thankful for that. If nothing else I’ve been apart of some great people’s lives- parents & kids alike.
I wrote a resignation letter today. I was going to give it to my boss when she came to see me today. I’m so frustrated with my job. Babysitting 15 kids ranging in age from 5-13 is hard & utterly overwhelming. It’s my first teaching job & I feel like I’ve been thrown to the wolves. I know a lot of the issues I’ve been facing are just done to inexperience. I’ve been pushing through & learning as I go, but it’s been tough.
Once I got to work I got a call from my boss. She was sick & she wouldn’t be able to make it that day. She also told me that they’re hiring me an assistant because I’ve been dealing with too many kids at once.
It’s funny how things work out. Right when I was at my breaking point things turned around. I know having an assistant won’t solve everything, but it will make a difference. I can deal with problems when they arise without abandoning the entire group. We can also do more fun activities if we have two people. It was also just nice to feel vindicated.
If I still hate my job once I have help, I’ll quit. For now, I’m going to keep trying. I don’t want to give up without trying.
I’m just going to make this daycare job as amazing as possible. I can do pretty much whatever I want, so I have some awesome stuff in the works like, a week dedicated to pirates, rocket ship launching, & art projects galore.
It was just quite a shock at first. I guess I thought I could just waltz in & be a cool teacher. This is a whole new deal & I’m not a student teacher anymore. I just wish I could have started the year off with them. I think thing would have been a little different, but I am in charge now & things are going to get better no matter what. I’m not going to hate my job for the next 8 months.
Even though a little girl pooped her pants today I’m considering today a success.
Here, I fixed most of them for you. The bathroom thing is really actually quite obnoxious to me, as a teacher.
I am thinking about getting certified to be a school librarian. I’ve been talking about it for years now & I might finally be in the position to do something about it. I already have 5 years of experience working in a library & 23 years experience of being a head librarian’s daughter. Basically, I know a lot about it.
Also, I think being able to be a school librarian & an art teacher would be great. Most of the time elementary art teachers have to work at two schools anyway. This way I could possibly be the librarian and teacher at the same school. I think this would be very marketable & a great way for the school to save money, if need be.
It would be grad school, but they wouldn’t have to pay me more (i.e. no one would hire me, if so) because it’s just a certification, not actually a masters. I think this really might be a great idea. I just don’t know if I can spend the $9,000+ to make it happen. I don’t know if it’s that good of an idea.
I’m not in a rush to decide or anything, but what do you think?
I taught a new class today all on my own & it happened to be the day that my advisor came to watch me. It was a painting lesson & I was a little nervous. It hard when both of us are there because they don’t know who to ask for help.
The students were so responsive & there was complete silence when I was teaching. I honestly don’t think I could have been any more pleased. My advisor was so happy. I think she was really impressed with both the class & my teaching.
The whole time the students were telling me how much they enjoying having me teach them and they were begging me to keep teaching them on my own. It made me feel really great, but I’m sad that they said some awful stuff about my host teacher. It puts me in an awkward position. I just try to say only positive things about her, but I do want them to feel validated. Whatever, I’m just going to focus on how great today was.
All I have to say is Thank God that today was a great day. I needed one.
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